Cover with an orange abstract texture and a right-hand sidebar with the title Help Me, Hold Me, Heal Me in large orange letters. Below the title is the words Jill McCracken in brown.

Single

2022
MMXXII
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aBOUT

When my anxiety gangs up on me, I feel like I’m completely alone. No matter how many friends I have, I feel like all of my big heavy feelings are too much for them. Like I can’t go to any of them with all this. I feel like no one can hold me. It’s too much too much too much too much too much.⁣ ⁣ In real life (not panicked-anxious-brain life), intellectually, I know that I have wonderful people in my life who want to help me and hold me. And I know that it’s natural to need that. Need help. Need people.⁣ ⁣ But my automatic trauma response says tells me it’s not right not natural not good to need people.⁣ ⁣ I do need the shit out of people tho.⁣

Songlist

dynamic song count
3:06

Pairs with

Scorpio season
Scorpio symbol

Lyrics

help me,

hold me,

heal me

reassure me,

tell me

you see me,

you hear me,

feel me

help me,

hold me,

heal me

i have trouble knowin’

if all your adoration ain't showin’

how could i know

when you walk out the door

that you’re not rolling your eyes

because i asked for more

asking you to

help me,

hold me,

heal me

reassure me,

tell me

you see me,

you hear me,

feel me

help me,

hold me,

heal me

i grew up to believe

that wanting to feel loved isn’t a natural need

so how could i know

when you come to hold me

that you’re not gonna turn around later

just to scold me

how could i know? (how could i know?)

how could i know? (how could i know?)

how could i know? (how could i know?)

how could i know? (how could i know?)

help me,

hold me,

heal me

reassure me,

tell me

you see me,

you hear me,

you feel me

help me,

hold me,

heal me

help me,

hold me,

heal me

reassure me,

tell me

you see me,

you hear me,

feel me

help me,

hold me,

heal me

Credits

Written by
Jill McCracken
Tracking
Andrew Oedel
Ghost Hit Recording
Mix
Andrew Oedel
Ghost Hit Recording
Mastering
Brian Lacey
Magic Garden Mastering
Strings tracking
Ryan Renteria
Lead vocals, background vocals, rhodes
Jill McCracken
Bass guitar
Miguel Cepeda
Drums, percussion
Kevin Ewer
Electric guitar
Luke Scotten
Background vocals
Octavia Bryant
Background vocals
Eileen O'Hara
Background vocals
Notebook P
Viola
Kevonna Shuford
Violin
Tiffany Chang
Strings arrangement
Shane Dylan
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