Cover image of Jill in a yellow shirt and tan skirt holding up a lemon against a white background. Above is the words "Jill McCracken" in black script letters and below that the album title in yellow and all caps.

Album

2018
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Shake Me Up was my debut album, a tribute to the highs and lows of being an alive, human person. This album works through themes of anxiety, heartbreak, and stepping toward the light of being truly authentic.

Songlist

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3:39

Pairs with

Your morning commute
Illustrated scene of two hanging subway handles and the corner of a window

Lyrics

do i make you nervous?

'cause you don't ever tell me how you feel

but you wanna spend time, time, time, time, time

spinning my wheels

you wanna stick around in the morning

talking all about the states we were born in

and i'm taking it as a warning

i don't wanna fall in love

'cause when i think about myself

as just a lovesick woman

sitting on the shelf

i grow so damn disappointed in me

that i lessen my love for the sky and the trees

and my dearest friends

and the air i breathe

i don't wanna fall in love

i could learn to love you

i think i know what i could do to get there

but i don't think that i, i, i, i want to

'cause honey i've been there before

and truthfully, i've got shit to do

i don't have much time to cater to you

and whenever i'm in love

that's all i wanna do

i don't wanna fall in love

'cause when i think about myself

as just a lovesick woman

sitting on the shelf

i grow so damn disappointed in me

that i lessen my love for the sky and the trees

and my dearest friends

and the air i breathe

i don't wanna fall in love

2
3:05

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Text message draft #305
Illustration of a conversation entry UI in a chat app

Lyrics

you were older when i met you

from what i could gauge

and many moons have come and gone

but i'm still not that age

blue and bright, my eyes were right

there for the taking

affixed on you, i knew

the mistakes we were making

do you think about me?

i don't think you do

you don't think about me

like i think about you

do you think about me?

i don't think you do

you don't think about me

like i think about you

i dreamt of you last night

you were breathing my air

you couldn't keep your hands off me

it's like you were there

your sandpaper chin

was turning mine red

but i can't remember how you touched me

or what you said

do you think about me?

i don't think you do

you don't think about me

like i think about you

do you think about me?

i don't think you do

you don't think about me

like i think about you

entertain me, baby

tell me, boy

that you think about me sometimes

and it brings you joy

don't you miss me?

or had i misread

the cadence of your sighs

as we lied in bed

do you?

i don't think you do

you don't think about me

like i think about you

do you think about me?

i don't think you do

you don't think about me

like i think about you

3
5:08

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Whiskey on the rocks
Illustration of a rocks containing whiskey and an ice ball

Lyrics

go, leave it alone

you don't want me anymore

the message received,

you don't have to say anything

and it's a good thing that you don't

'cause i tried, and you won't

so i've made up your mind

for you

am i taking it too

seriously?

am i making a fool

out of me?

go, leave it alone

i know you think we're better on our own

although, i can't say we've tried

any other way

and it's a good thing that we don't

we've got jobs and friends and homes

i got no sense to share my heart

with you

am i taking it too

seriously?

am i making a fool

out of me?

oh, the line,

the line

we come up

every time

toe to toe

i take one step closer

that's when you take

one step behind

oh, the line

the line

we come up

every time

toe to toe

i take one step closer

that's when you take

one step behind

and i'm the fool;

i'm the fool on the other side

am i taking it too

seriously?

am i making a fool

out of me?

am i taking it too

seriously?

am i making a fool

out of me?

4
4:18

Pairs with

A PBR + an oversized sweater
Illustrated scene of a PBR beer can next to a folded fluffy sweater sleeve

Lyrics

sometimes i forget

because we've gone so far

our separate ways

in our separate lovers' cars

y'all out west

and we farther east

i thought our contact had desisted

and ceased

well, i'm coming home

for the holidays

to see my folks and my old friends

from my younger days

it just occurred to me

maybe you are too

i kinda banked on never

seeing you

out in the parking lot

i almost forgot

you and i are from the same hometown

i don't wanna see you walking around

will i see you at the grocery store?

the one between my house and yours

but you know,

i would really like it

if i ran into your mother

i never meant to break up with her

or your sister or brother

i wanna ask her

if she's doing alright

how's your father's health

and is he sleeping through the night?

i know she'd be pleasant

and most cordial, i'm sure

but i wonder what she thinks of me

or if she's a bit unsure

i hope she understands me

and what i have endured

but she's always in her family's corner

that's what i love about her

out in the parking lot

i almost forgot

you and i are from the same hometown

i don't wanna see you walking around

will i see you at the grocery store?

the one between my house and yours

well, i ain't got nothing, no no

i ain't got nothing, no no

i ain't got nothing to say to you

you and i are from the same hometown

and i don't wanna see you walking around

will i see you at the grocery store?

the one between my house and yours

well, i ain't got nothing, no no

i ain't got nothing, no no

i ain't got nothing to say to you

to you

to you

5
4:04

Pairs with

Soft serve ice cream cone
Illustration of an empty flat-bottom cone on its side in a puddle of melted ice cream

Lyrics

when i get home

the first thing i'll do

stick my paws in the mailbox

looking for a letter from you

i've been trying

not to count on it

but you told me that you'd write me

i can't help myself

baby i want it

'cause one day in the summer you were holding me close

i never thought i'd wait hopelessly on the post

looking for a clue that i'm still on your mind

feeling like a lost love left behind

you don't got

any nostalgia

for putting pen to paper

the old-fashioned things always failed ya

meanwhile i'm

so sentimental

got me going through the notes you wrote me

wondering if your heart was a rental

'cause i

hope

you're

not

lis-

ten-

ing

one day in the summer you were holding me close

i never thought i'd wait hopelessly on the post

looking for a clue that i'm still on your mind

feeling like a lost love left behind

this ain't the modern day

i'm feeling like it's 1968

when you get home

the first thing you'll do

what the hell, i don't know

i don't even have a clue

all i know

is it's been years now

but yesterday i dreamt that you still wanted me

i woke up in tears now

'cause i

hope

you're

not

lis-

ten-

ing

when i say that you

have

got

me

hang-

ing on

a string

'cause one day in the summer you were holding me close

i never thought i'd wait hopelessly on the post

looking for a clue that i'm still on your mind

feeling like a lost love left behind

one day in the summer you were holding me close

i never thought i'd wait hopelessly on the post

looking for a clue that i'm still on your mind

feeling like a lost love left behind

6
3:55

Pairs with

Mezcal
Illustration of an orange slice, a shot glass filled with mezcal, and a pinch of salt

Lyrics

baby

you can be saccharine sweet

that's why i call you honey

i never loved so completely

baby

there ain't nobody but you

you're in every single season

of my future

what i need

from you

you got it baby

you do

and honey

you want me as i am

and you can call me savory

because i give a damn

honey

need you to balance me out

why don't you uncross my arms

unfurrow my brow

and what i need

from you

you got it baby

you do

only need you to love me honey

only need you to love me honey

only need you to love me honey

only need you to love me honey

ninety-nine days in your embrace

how many thousands left to go?

there's no end to you anytime soon

yeah that's how i want it to go

so when i push, baby

push, baby

i need you standing tall

i need you to love me

love me, honey

7
4:12

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Capricorn season
Illustration of the Capricorn symbol

Lyrics

the way you look at me

yes it's good, but is it good enough?

your house right down the street

yes it's good, but is it good enough?

the man you want to be

yes it's good, but is it good enough?

'cause what good is good

unless it's good enough?

am i

ever gonna be

satisfied?

am i

ever gonna be

satisfied?

the promises i keep

yes they're good, but are they good enough?

the way i say i'm sorry

yes it's good, but is it good enough?

oh, working at my dreams

yes it's good, but is it good enough?

'cause what good is good

unless it's good enough?

am i

ever gonna be

satisfied?

am i

ever gonna be

satisfied?

hey, hey

my whole life

hey, hey

my whole life

i'm always bundled up

but i can't get warm

i know all the words

but not the form

i eat plenty

but i can't get full

my whole life

i'm insatiable

hey, hey

my whole life

hey, hey

my whole life

i'm insatiable

my whole life

i'm insatiable

my whole life

8
4:11

Pairs with

Pride month
Illustration of a waving Pride flag with a heart floating beside it

Lyrics

do you feel like something's missing?

you wanna fix it but you don't know how

you don't feel a thing from kissing

you're wondering what the fuss is all about

and the whole wide world

wants to see you like the sun

you shine

when you

come out

you've heard of satisfaction

but it's an idea that never came to life

and you never got the traction

of being more than a twinkle in a man's eye

and the whole wide world

wants to see you like the sun

you shine

when you

come out

the whole world's having a party

and you never felt invited

they're all so loud and splashing around

so you can't help feeling slighted

but come out, come out

the whole world wants to see you

come out, come out

the whole world wants to know you

come out, come out

the whole world's gonna love you

the whole world's gonna love you

anything you got in, let it out

anything you got in, let it out

don't you waste time being untrue

to you

anything you got in, let it out

anything you got in, let it out

don't you waste time being untrue

to you

anything you got in, let it out

anything you got in, let--

being untrue

'cause you shine

when you

come out

9
4:06

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Fizzy water
Illustration of a half-filled seltzer spray bottle floating with several small fizz bubbles

Lyrics

please

be gentle with your touch

i've got a delicate heart

it feels everything twice as much

now i've tried every little trick in the book

just to keep from getting shook

please don't

shake me up

yeah, don't

shake me up

ooh ooh ooh

shake me up

i'm trying

lord, i'm trying

i'm all lookin' out my third eye

i've got all my shit all aligned

i'm taking time every day

to go outside

now i've tried every little trick in the book

just to keep from getting shook

oh, please don't

shake me up

yeah, don't

shake me up

ooh ooh ooh

don't shake me up

yeah

shake me up

ooh ooh ooh

if you can't find your peace of mind,

i'm sorry,

but don't step on mine

if you can't find your peace of mind,

i'm sorry,

but don't step on mine

if you can't find your peace of mind,

i'm sorry,

but don't step on mine

if you can't find your peace of mind

i'm sorry

but please don't shake me up

shake me up

yeah, don't

shake me up

ooh ooh ooh

don't shake me up

yeah, don't

shake me up

ooh ooh ooh

shake me up

yeah, don't

shake me up

ooh ooh ooh

don't shake me up

yeah

i'm trying

10
5:06

Pairs with

A too-long hug with your “friend”
Abstract illustration of two arms folding around each other in embrace

Lyrics

a taste of sweetness

let me get one more

a taste of sweetness

when my heart is sore

a taste of sweetness

and i know it ain't right

'cause a taste of sweetness

keeps me up at night

my eyes get greener

as i grow older

they used to be more blue

and i feel more alone

the more time i

more time i spend with you

a taste of sweetness

from somebody new

a taste of sweetness

well it's got me all confused

i need someone to say

why do you do that?

what you always do

what's the matter with you?

why do you make your

-self a fool?

oh, you're making a fool of others too

ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh, because

tastes of sweetness

are so few and far between

that a taste of sweetness

got me chasing that dream

ooh ooh ooh, one more time

a taste of sweetness

let me get one more

'cause a taste of sweetness

is an open door

Credits

All songs written by
Jill McCracken
Engineering & production
Nick Bullock
Awake Studios
Mix
Nick Bullock
Awake Studios
Mastering
Pete Lyman
Infrasonic Sound
Lead vocals, background vocals
Jill McCracken
Drums, percussion
Kevin Ewer
Guitar
Jim Horvath
Bass guitar
Brendan Duran
Keys
Jon Petronzio
Background vocals
Mandy Goldman
Album cover photo
Tory Corless
Makeup artist
Kristen Zarba
Design
Jill McCracken
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